簡單愛~Simple Love

wow. i haven't posted in this thing in ages. ANYWAY.

so quick update on life i guess.

2nd year of college whoohoo~

taking...english comp 3, japanese 4, korean 1 this quarter.

Japanese is great, it's getting harder obviously, but i just study a lot =-='

Korean. This class. is killing me. It's only like the 3rd week but I just...can't pronounce the sounds for the life of me. and I DON'T UNDERSTAND why but korean vocab KILLS me. Japanes vocab took like me like maybe an hr or so to learn the chapter's vocab...but korean. D:

they don't stick for some reason. I had an easier time remembering my chinese than korean, which is ridiculous.

i dunno. it's not like the grammar's hard, i mean common it's korean 1 =-=' but not being able to pronounce anything and tripping over sounds and blanking out makes my confidence level drop like a rock. Not that it wasn't already really low anyway....

I think the amount of studying I do for my languages is ridiculous. I want to be really fluid in japanese, but I don't actually physically talk that much except in class and repeating to myself when I'm studying. Basically the theory kinda falls apart when faced with real-world situations. もっと日本語を話すと、上手になる。。。はずです。But I really don't have any faith in my ability....lol <___<

But. yea. studying for japanese and korean has taken over my life. And yet I don't feel like i'm really learning anything...not by any fault of my teachers...just that i fail TT________TT and things don't stick. *sigh*

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Music wise! :D

I've added ...115 songs(8:35:58 playtime; 861.5 mb) to my itunes in just the past two weeks...I'm trying to get back to listening to more...non asian stuff lol
I realize also I don't have a lot of female singers...which makes me sad because female voices I actually like more in general....
Also, i really like remixes of things. mashups are my fave :)

so a run-down of what's been in my itunes the past few weeks...

Katy Perry (I rather like her whole cd actually...)
Rihanna
Nell
KOKIA
Jem (aaaaaaaaaaaaah <3333333333333 i feel stupid that i haven't discovered her earlier DDD: )
DAISHI DANCE (the mixing of the piano and electronic/dance is <333)
Joon Wha Jae In
...

and
alan~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
 i'm sad i only got unlazy this week and finally got around to tagging and upping her music to my itunes...her voice is sooo pretty and she has sucha amazing voice *________________________________________* signed to avex trax, but she's tibetian and awesome~~~~ she has chinese songs too :D

So this is the chinese version of 心・戦 ～RED CLIFF～ :D

02 心・戦 ～RED CLIFF～

12 All Good Things(Come To An End)

Nelly Furtado

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"All Good Things (Come To An End)"

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

The rain needs to go away. It's making me moody.

After a few days...I finally finished the con report. Although I'm not entirely sure if everythings correct. I think i have a few song order mixed up and stuff.

I got there at 6:30, and there was the whole NO CAMERAS, NO WATER, NO FOOD (they didn’t even let you bring in your own water bottles…cheap butts D: )And I was waiting in line for buying concert goods and stuff.

Apparently reading around some forums, the US Customs computers crashed, so they couldn’t get the goods to the venue in time. The goods were in the US a week before the concert, but because of crashing computers, they couldn’t get them to the concert in time. *sigh* They’ll be available Jan 5^th, and $20 for shipping, which is a little ridiculous, but my college is close enough that I can just go there to pick up my stuff. I think they REALLY jacked up the prices for some things tho =____=’

I got to my seat and was pretty happy about where I sat XD But I was a little annoyed, because it was 7:30, but it didn’t start until 8.

[Don’t have pictures uploaded yet, will do so later XD]

First song was黃金甲. All the dancers were dressed up like his outfit in ‘Curse of the Golden Flower’ He had like ten bajillion feathers in the back of his costume, and his hair was really….high up.  He looked like a rooster LOL. It was gross XD. Two members of NQMM were on stage too; they played the electric guitar :D

The second song he had a slight costume change. i.e. he took off the giant feather jacket of doom.  Now he’s wearing a nice black leather jacket. But his hair’s still gross XD

The third song was 不能说的秘密. He went to go change and came back wearing a pink jacket XD

Fourth song he didn’t go change; he sang 退後.

Fifth song he went to change, and there were CLOWNS THAT CAME OOOOOUT XDDDDD He sang 聽媽媽的話

And next is the infamous cowboy song XD It was cute. I guess I kinda like it now. Oh. No wardrobe change. They had the dancers in the back doing square dancing.

And then he disappeared and reappeared with the pianooooo~ and I was super really OMGGGGG happy because the piano was on my side of the stage XD (oh and he changed again…into a sorta shiny black suit)

(btw, I found this picture link XD http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v311/maikole/Jay%20Chou/IMG_4072.jpg ) I guess even Jay can’t concentrate on lyrics and playing at the same time(I know it’s pretty hard for me….)

The first song he played was 黑色幽默. And then he talked a little about how the next song was usually played on the guitar, and not the piano, but he always likes trying new things and change things, so he wanted to try this song on the piano.

So the eighth song was 夜曲. It sounded absolutely awesome. I didn’t realize it wasn’t played on the piano usually until he started playing it. Haha. This is probably my favorite song off Nov Chopin, so it made me happy :D

Ninth Song was 安靜.

And then Jay disappeared, and there was this little story playing on the screen. SO SILLY. So YuHao of NQMM is on the screen, and he’s watching clips of Jay dancing with the..er…’big’ lady from the cowboy song music video. And he goes on and on about ‘why is it always you, jay, that takes away my love’ and like…how when he composes something, jay does it better, and all this stuff about ‘well so what if you can do this and that?’（for example, the nunchucks and they have a mock battle on the screen where jay punches YH away, and he’s like flailing XD ） And at the end he’s like “Big lady”‘你等着。 我会尝你回来的.

And so, YH rises up onto the stage….PLAYING PIANO….DUNDUNDUUUUN IT’S THE PIANO BATTLE SCENE FROM THE MOVIE ‘SECRET’.
Jay comes up too….YH has a black piano and is wearing black, and jay has a white piano, but he’s still wearing the black outfit from earlier. And then the pianos go back down, but they come back up and have a rapping battle XD it’s cute.

After that they go backstage, and they set up for a Er Hu http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erhu ) player. It’s kinda funny bc from where I’m sitting I can see the guy behind her constantly putting up pages of her music, and then taking it down again to put up the next few sheets, and he’s like kneeling and pressing his chest to his knees so people can’t see him…poor guy XD. (yup she was on our side of the stage :D )

The lady finished playing, and then Jay comes out with his dancers….the girls are in a really skimpy red thing…and the guys are wearing white. And holding HUGE FANS XD.  Jay’s in a nice white outfit complete with hat :D. They’re these huge white fluffy Las Vegas-esque fans :D  Jay sang 千里之外. And then there’s this dancing portion(like in the MV, using the music from 紅模仿), and Jay disappears. The pretty red girls come out to the audience (there was one that danced about 3 rows down from me) and start dancing….a few of them that go to the front rows start dancing with random men. HAHAHAHAHA. They’re really quite skinny >< But then again with their whole midriff showing, they can’t exactly be pudgy =_=’

And then Jay appeared again, still wearing the white outfit. He sang 菊花台.

And then dancers appeared! And they did 本草綱目. There’s that one part of the song where there’s that boooing~~ booing~~ noise, and in the MV the little kids are hopping around like evil spirit things. Jay does it too XD It’s so cute. And Jay danced very nicely. :) not a lot because of his back problem, but he did well XD and he did some breakdancing too :D

And THEN. The dancers left, and two other dancers dressed up like santa claus(but totally too skinny XD ) come out and jay does some pop-lock-ing with them :D

Then, the guest singers, which should come as no surprise as being NQMM, come out and they sing two songs. THEY’RE ALL SO WONDERFUL AND CUTE AND HOT AND GWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. Even lara. Haha . If I could ‘have’ her, whereas the guys would be my boyfriend XD, she’d be my sister :D. They’re really awesome…They sang two songs ^^ And now I need to go find all the NQMM songs there are. Gwah I love all of them XD.

Lara said some things about how it made her really happy that all of us were spending xmas eve with them and jay chou and how it makes her happy to see so many of us there because LA is her hometown and such. The other three looked a little lost when she started talking, because she was speaking in English XD but gwah they’re all so <3.

I need to find some Nan Quan Ma Ma songs…..anybody got some for me? XD I know they only have like four albums…

Then Jay Chou came back out and sang 迷迭香.

And then he disappeared again, and this time appeared with like ten bajillion other people, i.e. like6 other people. Two guitarists(one of whom was one of the members of NQMM) a pianist(nqmm) another singer(nqmm)

First off, they sang “Silent Night” in Chinese. Then Jay sang 青花瓷. And then LOL. jay introduced themembers of nqmm again, and was kinda mean about the last one….he was like…he can’t really play an instrument…or sing all THAT well…but he tries very hard. HAHA SO MEAN XD

And so they do a remix version of 忍者(or maybe it’s 雙截棍? Gwah I can’t remember…I need to check over my vids XD ). They were saying how a lot of people know the song of course, but it hasn’t really been played/sang/done to its full potential during concerts, and people don’t completely appreciate/enjoy/get? The song kinda thing. The guitarist nqmm tried a certain version, and then Jay was like do you like that version or the original? And everyone was like “the original!!!’ haha poor guy. And then of course jay does a remix his way and everyone loves it XD. I didn’t care either way ( I thought both of them were weird honestly) but it was cool hearing it.

AND THEN. He was like “what do you guys want to hear?” and of course we yell out like 230593804598 things XD. And then these two girls walk up to the stage with this huge bouquet of flowers.  And Jay’s like “eh? 有两个拉美”(hot girls)[I don’t think I have the right ‘la’ ] and they gave him the bouquet and shook hands with him. GWAAAAAAAH. *is ridiculously jealous * and so he asked them what they wanted to hear, and they chose this really old song…that was dedicated to all the moms in the audience and stuff. And he said something about like “and for those people who aren’t mothers…” and I couldn’t catch it, but it was apparently funny. Haha. But omg. So they started singing it, and all of a sudden Jay’s like “That mom looks like she knows it, do you know it?” and she really did…the singing member of nqmm gave her the mike and she sang the song. I was like woooow~. He really is a very filial son <3 That was a really cool part of the show tho :D

And then they sang 陽光宅男(with all the members of NQMM) and HOMG HE CAME DOWN THE STAIRS. A;SLKHA;SLDKFJA;KJF. When he was coming down people were FREAKING OUT. And I of course freaked out too XD. He came down the stairs on the side of the stage closet to me, and I was like A;SLDGKHA;SDKFJA;LKJF.(yes I did run XD ) I was two feet from jay Chou…I have a blurry picture to prove it. HOMG. Aaaaaaah love him <3 I wished I had touched him LOL but it’s okay.

And that was supposed to be the end, and some people actually started to leave….HELLO IT’S CALLED ENCORES!!!!!

He did霍元甲 and開不了口(?) I’m not sure about kai bu liao ko because I KNOW for sure he did that one because he had the audience sing along, but I don’t remember if it was an encore song or not.

And then he disappeared, and people thought it was really over, because the lights turned on, but I DIDN’T LEAVE XD. I was like. Pft. He’s not done. He usually does at least five encore songs before really finishing. And they haven’t started taking down the equipment yet.  But nope. He CAME BACK.

It was awesome; he played 髮如雪 on the Gu Zheng~ Aaah Jay you’re so cool <3

Oh and somewhere in here the blackhaired member(I think the one who plays guitar? Gah I need to learn their names..i only know yu hao  and lara XD oh well. 50% done XD ) and lara sang a duet of wu ding, which sounded awesome and made me like the song again…I actually kinda dislike that song…not really sure why.

I think I’m missing an encore song, but I can’t place what it would be….

Oh and I can’t remember which songs this happened in…but he had nunchucks and he threw them into the audience when he was done. HOMG. And he threw his fan from 霍元甲 I believe(he did this really cool twirling thing with it before he threw it…gah wished I had caught it on cam) and in one of the earlier songs he was playing with a Chinese yo yo(very weird btw..the yoyo was neon pink and the rope for it was neon green. But I guess it had to look flashy/noticeable under the concert lights) and he threw the pink yoyo into the audience at the end of the song. and at the very end of the con(don’t remember if this was b4 encores or not)HE THREW HIS FREAKING JACKET INTO THE AUDIENCE.  OHA;SLDFNAS;GLASKDHV;ANSLDGIAHS;LDFKA;NASDH

That jacket. Oh my. But it’s okay :D I’m really happy.

Personal thoughts:

I’m a little sad that Jay couldn’t go all out on this concert. For one thing, the stage isn’t that big, and there isn’t much he can work with. For another thing, he was sick :( His voice sounded a little nasally, but he tried his best :)
Being my first Jay concert, I can’t really say if it was “bad” in any way, but I was a little surprised and sad that he didn’t sing 我不配. And the concert was too short I thought. But I don’t think it was entirely his fault; encores for Jay usually go on for a while, but he probably just wasn’t up to it because he was sick and didn’t want to strain himself too much.
I remember this one song, he tried to breakdance(tried to do a freeze like this one http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/0/04/51189164_3cc8f04821_o.jpg) , and kiinda did it, but I guess his back wasn’t up to it, so he stopped. This concert was worth the trekking and the figuring out busses and the walking and the plane ride that sucked and the MONEY. IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH ALL THE MONEY SPENT ON IT. I WILL NEVER. EVER. REGRET. THIS. EVER.

Notes to self: Next time….get the super VIP seating. HAR HAR HAR XD. [he threw everything into the first 7 rows or so]

this is so ridiculous. JAY CHOU CONCERT. in like 26 hours and what am i doing? I'M SICK!

not so sick that i can't go, but this is pretty bad >< i mean i keep coughing and stuff.

and i totally blame shelley for telling me to wear something nice. i have no idea what to wear!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i mean seriously! and i need to find some way to sneak the camera in....

but i am so excited @____________@

JAY CHOU HERE I COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOME

it's in a week.

a whirl of badly written chinese, stumbling translations, notes that bring tears

a phone call that means nothing and shouldn't mean anything and yet i'm still trying to make something

out of stories not my own and situations in an alternate universe(again)

in a place where berry ladies hallucinate of shadow hands and a piano that goes backward
because it's too hard to go forward and the rain makes everything standstill.
still hoping for the stardust of tomorrow.

in such a place i want to find.

01 Winter Love

BoA

I do not believe I have ever felt this excited for winter break. Now one part of it is obv. the fact that I haven't been living at home, so it is nearly time for
THESUPERBIGWARMWONDERFULBEDOFMINE
and being home. and eating. actual FOOD.

I will never ever get tired of the fact that I will have actual food to eat at home. Especially since the rice here....sucks. I don't think it's jasmine rice, which is what I eat at home, but besides that.....they cook it weeeeeeeeeeeeird ;____;
It's so chunky and hardish and NOT RICE ;____; But I deal with it of course, because rice is rice...I feel like I'm eatting fattening rice, tho, if there is sucha thing  =___='

Speaking of jasmine rice, Steve said I actually eat "expensive rice" and am thus spoiled in the rice department. Don't you guys eat jasmine rice? What other types of rice do asian people eat? o_O Rissa is confused. XD

Also, I do believe this is the first time in a VERY long time that I've had a REAL winter break. I think it is the lamest thing in the world that finals at northgate were like two weeks after winter break...I remember for the past four years, I was always doing SOME sort of studying during break.

But now we're really, truly DONE!!!!! It's a very nice feeling :) And this time it's for three weeks! I like to round, and say it might as well be a month :D Waaaaah~ a whole month of being at home <3

I cannot wait to see everyone again :D and have parties and have sleepovers and watch movies, and it's all just gonna be wonderfulicious.

...................cept there is this matter of christmas shopping....hmmmmmm......

I actually do have work of sorts over winter break though...haha..only because Rissa is crazy. Let's list them! XD
This is definitely not in order of importance....but yea....so much translating to do, homg. XD

1. My Lucky Star Episode 20 Last Part
2. Huan Zhu Ge Ge Episode 12
3. Mean Girl Ah Chu Episode 6 Part ??
4. 18 Jin Bu Jin Episode ?? Part ??
5. Translate 2+ chapters of 100 Day Contract
6. Translate rest of Animal Farm
7. Post up new chapter of The Wolf Necklace
8. Write two chapters of Shige's story
9. Write more of Circle in the Sand
10. Study Japanese for placement test

And there's like so many other things I need to do, but the writing and the translating is especially important....lol i think in all that may be more than 3 hours of videos to translate XD
The writing is just important to me, because I need to write and I feel accomplished even if I only get about a paragraph out. Plus two of those stories have been LOOOONG in the making and planning....one of them I haven't updated in a little over a year :x

And I cannot wait. for. homg. christmas eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeve. JAY CHOU HERE I COOOOOOME *_____________________________*

Hm. That's enough procrastinating....I should go pack to go home XD

I bet most of you came because you saw the FREE GIFTS thing huh? XD!

I'm not lying tho, haha:

For the first fivepeople that reply to me and re-post this challenge, I will send you something. It might be something I've made, or something cool from my hidden stash, it might be a mix CD, a book I think you will enjoy, or something else that is awesome. Whatever it is, I promise that I will get it to you in 365 days or fewer. The only thing you need to do in order to participate is to be one of the first five to reply to this, AND post this very same thing on YOUR Vox - cause it's fun to give to people.

Since most of you don't have vox and are most likely reading this on facebook, just leave a comment there :) but you do have to repost it on facebook or wherever....SOMEWHERE and spread it around :D because it's fun to give people things ^^

I'll put up a finalized list in a later post :)

So how are things with Rissa? Things are not all that well. This is a pretty long post, so I split it up.

Language is not my forte?

    I don't really know to do right now. I wa s really excited to take Chinese 4A. I love Chinese...there is something in the power of being able to speak and write the hardest language on the planet. HAHA. I mean I used to hate going to Chinese School, but there came a point in freshman year of high school, where I went to class, and I was like "omigosh I get this!! I can remember these words!" It all kinda came together, and I started to enjoy chinese school a lot more, even though I might not have shown it.

    I had already decided the moment I decided to quit chinese school(because of crazy workload jr year) that I was definitely going to take Chinese in college. I took the placement test during zero week, I made sure I got into the class....and now.  I don't know if I can follow through.

    Was it that I'm not prepared for how intensive the class is? The fact that I have to constantly study? I wasn't exactly prepared per se, but I didn't mind it. I even started getting up early to study before class every day. I didn't mind it; I always felt that I was really learning something. I'd come out of class everyday, and be like "Wow. I feel more knowledgeable."

    And yes somehow, that doesn't seem to transfer over. I feel like I've learned more, I feel like I've studied, but somehow.....the grades don't prove it.

    And so I'm wondering, that whole thing where I thought I was good at languages....was that just me being arrogant? Me being delusional? I'm thinking of taking Japanese 2 next quarter; can I really handle two languages at one time?

First pass for classes already happened...OH NOES. I have no idea what to take if my back-up plan (because I can't sign up for Japanese right now) of signing up for Japanese 2 doesn't work out. I just signed up for Chinese and Chem 14b for now...sigh =-='

Too many notes, too little time.

I miss playing piano a lot. I have like no time at all to play anything. Being at home is really nice in that I can wake up and just sit down at my piano. MY. piano. How long has it been that I can say "i'm gonna play piano on my piano." No, it's been "I'm gonna go up to Rieber and play piano." To think I have to walk up like four bajillion flights of stairs just to play piano.

Although, I also have to say, I've never had as much satisfaction from playing piano than I have these past few months. It's so nice to be able to say  "I played piano for two hours, my fingers hurt". Is it bad that I'm happy when my fingers hurt? I don't get to play piano all that often, so I have to REALLY take advantage of it. And having the fingers hurt makes me feel like I've done something, that I've accomplished something during a time when I feel like I can't do anything right. It's weird to think that that if I were at home, I would be playing piano probably every single day. I still feel a little irked that I wasn't able to finish the whole grade series....ONE LEVEL LEFT! >< But oh well. Senior year really didn't allow for that...so i guess it's alright.

Majorly stressing

I still don't know what to do about my major. The more I think about it, the more I REALLY don't want to be biology major. Chem...I can do, but I don't have any joy from it. I can't even imagine taking physics later....

The way my schedule is, I'm not getting GE's done and I'm just....taking stuff I want to. HA. It's like "Wait a minute rissa, what are you saying. Isn't that what you're supposed to be doing?? You're in college! What are you talking about....what is this business of doing stuff you NEED to. PFT!" Oh my life T_T

Dorm food seems to have majorly sucked lately. Like more than usual. And this isn't just because of coming back from home.

And おめでとう！！ to NEWS, who finally got freaking dome concertS!!!  They so deserve it ;___; <3

And I had to add this in, because I love this song....

11 ゴメンネ ジュリエット

NEWS

Gomen ne Juliet

When I met you, I remembered
I remembered the long forgotten feelings of loving someone
Since that time that those wonderful feelings were restored,
Every single day has been so bright and colorful
Even if things get in the way, nothing will be lost
Because I vowed to do my best to care for you and love you

Love is mutual, I sent it to you, it can’t be held back
I miss you, I want to see you but I can’t even do that
Our wish to never be apart didn’t come true
We can’t send each other a million kisses
I miss you on this holy night
I fell in love with you, I want you to love me

Even if I were to become blind, I would know it was you
That is because we hugged each other so many times
We both loved each other, but we couldn’t get beyond that
I guess it must have been fate

Though we checked it by sharing a million kisses
Some part or some thing didn’t seem quite satisfied
We both sensed the end of this romance
Ah sorry, Juliet

Translations credit to: NEWShfan @ LJ

This is written at 3 am....if it's a lil incoherent. yea. that's why.

Thanksgiving is next week.

It scares me. It scares me because I don't know what to say, I don't know how to act. I'm afraid I won't show enough respect. What do I say to him? I'm scared of failing. Of disappointment.

I have an overactive imagination. I see things, and I read things, and I think "What if..." and then my eyes go blurry and I want to curl into a ball. I don't want to know what my limits are. Please don't push them.

I walk around campus and I seem them and I ignore it, but they come back when I want to sleep, and I don't know what to do. Is it time to move on? Do I want to believe that what I have is unsubstantial?

I want time just to sit and listen. Give me five minutes five minutes maybe even just one and let me sit and listen and live.  This thing I'm doing right now, isn't living. It's struggling to breathe, it's forcing a smile and suppressing the tears.

Let me see the stars and breathe real air, and show me that there's beauty in the breakdown

Frou Frou-Let Go

So, I haven't written a blog entry since moving into UCLA, but there's not much to say about stuff here. It's college? I mean you're either experiencing it or you're gonna. Or whatever. Anyway....

A 'Secret' Music Box

I recently got my credit card.....HEHE. >_>

I bought a lotta stuff ._____. It's in the triple digits, and not barely in the triple digits either...

But one of the best things I bought...was definitely this:

Music_box

It's actually really small, but that's okay <3 It comes with THIS:

Mini_score

Which is just wicked awesome xD

Of course the highlight of those purchases is definitely WITHOUT A DOUBT the jay chou ticket and I do not, and will not EVER regret spending that money XD.....the other stuff....>_> *sigh* But I told myself(and I will follow through) that I wouldn't buy anything ELSE not neccessary to my living and/or  entertainment related until I get a job...because otherwise Rissa's just gonna be spending money left and right...that isn't completely mine anyway .____.

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Majorly Distressing

I recently found out I've been taking the wrong math class.....Math 32A is definitely not the math class I'm supposed to be taking...it's for like engineers and crap....so I was able to get out of that class and into Math 3C, which is for Biology and Life Science Majors...(I didn't know we'd have a totally different math section...but okay XD ) and  thank goodness that I got out of that class....I didn't understand it at all....was definitely gonna get an F in that class -0-

Speaking of this major thing.....I'm so....it's not that I'm torn. I'm more worried by the fact that I'm not torn....

I really want to switch to East Asian studies/Asian Humanities/Linguistics (???) It's one of those things....the whole point is that it's a faaaar cry from oh, say. biology. .___. I don't know what to do...I actually had a chat with one of the  Bank of America  teller while I was transfering money from checks into my accounts...and it's like o_o. Even he said I should switch. HAHA. As I remember him saying "North Campus just has more fun" (He was a bio major and went to ucla apparently XD )

I don't know. The more I take chem, the less interesting it is to me....but I love my chinese class. It's my earliest class, and it's the same length as the rest of my classes...but I never feel sleepy in that class...and I'm always paying attention...and it's just ...I love the feeling I have after I get out of that class....like I'm actually progressing in Chinese.

I don't feel that way when I get out of Chem. I don't get that feeling when I came out of Math (hopefully this new math class I'm gonna start taking will be better tho :] )

So I really don't know what to do....It's just first quarter tho...so I try not to think about it. *sigh*

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Hands on Keys; Hands on Me

Yesterday, because of looking up Vanessa Carlton sheet music, I had this sudden urge to play piano. I haven't played piano since a very long time ago....and so I went to go play. Everyone was at the UCLA vs. Cal game, so there was no one at the music rooms :) And I played for two hours....and .....it was absolutely heavenly. I haven't played in sucha time, I had actually forgotten the overpowering feeling of peace and happiness and love I feel after really playing piano...It isn't a feeling that makes you wanna smile really wide, but more like the experience of feeling the wind flow past you as you stand on a cliff overlooking the ocean. Is that a bit dramatic? haha...And I fell in love with the piano all over again...I think the fact that I was alone, in a snug little room, with the sound reveberating all around...it helped. XD

Speaking of Vanessa Carlton, her new cd Heroes & Thieves is (because I'm not capable of thinking up good vocab words) amazingly beautiful I love every single song on the album, but what really caught my attention was the track Hands on Me and Heroes & Thieves, which you can listen to here(just click the pic) :)

02 Hands On Me

Vanessa Carlton

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I first saw you at the video exchange
I know my heart and it will never change
This temp work would be alright if you'd call me
You'd call me

I lie awake at night
And for you I pray

We crossed the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you dont believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations shine down for us to see
And if you dont believe me
Just put your hands on me, oh no

The subway radiates with heat
We've barely met
And still I cross the street to your door

07 Heroes & Thieves

Vanessa Carlton